“The creative is the place where no one else has ever been. You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you'll discover will be wonderful. What you'll discover is yourself.”
~ Alan Alda
Anne Who Knows the Answers said to write anything. Even if it’s just sharing what I had for breakfast. She’s right of course. Told you she knows the answers.
The process of writing…just doing it…making it part of my routine… that’s what matters. So often I only focus on wanting the outcome to be perfect. I get lost in my head. Lost in vision. Vision is wonderful but also an easy place for me to hide out. And often the more I hang out there, the more fearful I get of failing. But it’s the act of creating, the process of creation. That’s what feeds my soul.
Making time to be creative is a priority for me this year. It’s an area where I want to risk big….try new things. Last summer I fell in love with reggae. Letting my body surrender to the freedom of the music felt incredible. Cooking shortly followed. I loved experimenting with tastes, colors, textures and spices. Two months ago I started playing with pastels in my apartment and tacking them on my wall. My living room became my gallery. I’d look at the wall - taking in the colors and images. Immediately I’d feel inspired - in sync with my spirit.
“All children are artists. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up.”
~Pablo Picasso
In my early twenties I began to doubt myself. One critical professor and suddenly I didn’t want to touch my camera. My mind could only focus on what my teacher or others would think. So after eight years of studying photography I quit. I told the teacher I had mono and took off for Spain the next semester, leaving my camera behind. Extreme? Clearly. My art was part of me and I didn’t have the self-confidence or experience in how to not take criticism personally. So I ran…
“There's a fine line between genius and insanity. I have erased this line.”
~Oscar Levant
In Spain I fell in love with Don Quixote, who most think of as mad. I only saw how he attained total freedom in his creativity. How he experienced the magic of the world. From then on I became lost in the world of academia and observation. I felt safe there and I thrived. As my brother used to tease - I became an art school drop-out and didn’t look back.
While photography appeared in my life again thanks to my life coach, Rhonda Britten, I still wasn’t able to put my heart fully in it. My first month in LA I was assisting on a David Grohl shoot and for People Magazine at the SAG awards. Yet I still didn’t want to take pictures. I was happier assisting.
I was clearly creatively blocked as they say. I now see it was much bigger. It was about still not trusting myself. I was denying a huge part of my existence. I believe one of human’s greatest gifts is their ability to create. It’s literally what we are designed to do. So when we’re not creating, we are not living the wonderful way we are meant to.
After almost ten years I am in a creative state again. I am inspired. And it feels wonderful.
I’m challenging myself to do something creative each day. To approach all that’s in front of me with a creative lens. Last night was hip-hop class. Today it’s writing this blog. I can’t wait to see what tomorrow will bring.
Grab some paper my friends. Write, draw, color or paint. Take fifteen minutes to dance freely to music or try out a new recipe. Trust me…you won’t regret it!
peace, love and light,
jessica...aka...ms divine...
“The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.”